IZIT TRUE??

today he told me tat he is in stress mood now, so hope i treat him gd...dun always angry him...but can i ask him?...when i stress do u treat me like tat as well?....u still the same make me sad and cry...u noe how to say like tat but y u duwan think wat u done b4?...i really dunno wat is ur thinking now...i really very sad about it....yea...i noe tis sem u will very stress but can u oso understand me?...haiz...understand my feeling...pls!!...fine...i duwan talk much on sms is coz i duwan to argue more...and make the problem solve easily...hope tomorrow will be a better day for me...god bless...

CRY...

when i was called him, since he said "i tot is next day morning edi"...which mean is he done his stuff then straight away go sleep until morning then no even send one msg to me and let me noe tat he sleep first...wat kind of attitude is tis?...treat me as wat?...haiz....when he ask me y so angry?...i just din msg u and i go sleep edi only ma...then i said i no angry...but actually (i am sad)...sad??...tis word how i say out to him?...i feel very weird if i say like tat coz he sure ask me sad wat?...then i sure dunno how to explain edi...then if cannot answer well then argue edi...
i duwan like tis...feel more sad and worry...before tat i just think he mayb busy din msg...then i just wait for him to msg me...but at last din receive any msg from him, and i call him...tat time i was got tat feeling wan to scold him...but i think he sleeping if i suddenly scold like tat will no very gd...so i just forget about it...and i wan to stop the conversation edi, but i like duwan stop like tat....coz i noe if i so fast stop then he oso will oso say ok la, bye bye...then no any msg or call again edi...wuwu...i noe he tired, and i oso understand, and i try to duwan disturb him, coz he told me b4 he will more busy than last term edi, so will less msg....but now is NO MSG....
in the first week like tat edi...the following week will how?...izit really not free then NO MSG ?...even sleep oso cannot send me ONE MSG?....WHY?...i really dun understand edi....feel very sad again...haiz...but i cannot tell anyone about my sadness...
later got sum ppl go to tell him then i sure get to ask question from again...i feel no tat freedom tat i go tell my sadness to my fren...
i really hope will not happen in the following week...i noe will less msg...at least ONE MSG BEFORE SLEEP not a problem wat i think?...
i can tell u?...if me i very very very very tired how i tired...i oso will MSG YOU B4 I SLEEP...and i oso will remember to msg u....
u still remember?...u sent me a msg b4?...there write tat u everynite b4 sleep will think of me and busy too...all tis izit true?...i really dunno...if true u wont forget to msg me b4 u wan to sleep...
WHY?...tell me pls!!!!!

Selfish me...

i am so selfish until din giv him time to concentare study and let him relax...just will keep complain tis and tat....make him more stress...but i oso got my reason to do tis....i always force him do sumthing tat he not able to do for me...if he din follow wat i said i will unhappy and angry him...just coz of tis he duwan to reject me and follow wat i said ...sumtime i really din think of him tat he will very tired and stress if he dun hav freedom to do his thing...is my bad...and i can feel tat he just coz of tis and go find his fren and duwan to find me...it is gd oso...face me then stress again...better face fren, for me i will do tis oso...i understand him....

sumtime coz of my study very stress and cry edi, but i din let him noe tat i cry...coz feel tat if i tell him he will keep asking me question and ask me dun cry, and oso make his mood not very gd just coz of me cry...and oso duwan let him noe tat i am a small gal always gal...act another face when wit him...i oso got my stress, of course he will too...

just coz of he always busy so i cannot find him when i nid him, and just can relax myself and find fren to chat...and i din blame of tis...just hope we can got more time wit each other and happy...

after his fren told me all about him, then i only he more stress and busy than and he actually oso wan more time wit me...but b4 i always complain to him...and scold him...i feel i very bad...i really not a gd gf as always understand him and care of him, let him rest more...

wat i done?...only make him more stress and dissapointed...

sry dear....now i only noe ur "ku zhong"....

College Life...

haiz...since i study at college i feel everyday oso very stressful and busy until no time to rest and enjoy...y?...and like everyday oso exam like tat...keep study and study just coz of exam...beside tat, still got alot of hw to do and oso assignment ...i feel very tired to face all tis...summore i study accounting course it is more stressful than other course...coz got a lot of clever students enter tis course...make me feel no confident to make it best in my exam....OMG...haiz...
just coz of tis, every nite i cannot sleep well and keep dream when sleep at nite...or cannot sleep until midnite...i duwan tis come to me...i wan my life like secondary skol and enjoy the skol life...but now how i oso cannot bak to secondary skol edi...very miss my secondary skol life, coz all the teacher trying to help us and explain to us...but now...all leaturer talk so fast and the tutor teach like no teach...haiz...how i go for exam?...hate my college life...
when i think of tis i feel sad and wan to cry...but i noe just sit there and cry is no point to success but i really cannot control my feeling edi...i really very sad now....and very stress oso...
when i stay at hostel i feel very lonely coz no fren can chat...i got roommate but like nth can chat...i miss my hs...i dun like to stay at hostel coz feel stress when study and unhappy...
tomorrow got ME exam again...nid to do revision again...very stress...how?...who can help me?...
i feel very busy after i study at college and no time to go out wit fren or go play...i duwan...i wan relax myself...i miss secondary skol life, coz can everyday go bak home and relax...time is past then is past cannot return bak...
i hope tomorrow i can ok abit coz finish exam edi...i really miss my secondary skol teacher and tuition teacher too...especially PN NG, PN LEE, ENCIK KAMBING, MISS KAREN....i miss u all a lot...and all my secondary skol frens...miss u all too....wuwu...

Sad again...

since i came back from ns, we seldom argue edi and oso nth happen between us...but yesterday got sumthing happen again edi, i feel so sad tis feeling come to me again...coz i duwan be like tat, i feel very stress...and dunno wat can i do...but nvm la, may be sumthing new come and i nid to learn again....haiz....izit i very kacau when sms and ask sumthing to u?...tat time was late edi, so i nid to ask whether u come bak late?...just ask like tis only, but u reply me like very angry like tat...but it is nvm la, i tot i think too much so only will think like tat, but actually not...is ur problem come edi, is u really angry about me msg u, not me think too much...so i ask u izit i disturb u then u said no...nvm la...then i din think so much edi, and i try to say other thing to forget it but u still use tat way to reply me...i feel got abit angry edi and oso sad...think tat y u treat me like tat?...i done anything wrong?...i really dun understand...i noe u very tired, but u no nid to use tis and angry me wat?...i feel so hurt...i just msg u and wan to get ur warm, but u suddenly like tat...omg...like a stone inside my heart...haiz...
i hope u will change tis attitude abit...but i noe i oso got my bad attitude, i try to change it...i just wan to tell u , i really very miss u and sumtime nid ur warm but i cannot get it...but of course i will be stronger oso la...just hope tat u dun treat me like tat again...i am very hurt...
tat is all wat i wan to tell u...tats all...if u said i msg u feel disturb then now i really dunno how to msg u edi...wan msg but scare disturb u...erm...if u read tis edi pls tell me tat i hav read tis blog...

^NS LIFE^

i am back...

finally i come bak from sabah edi...hehe...but i early bak for continue study la...if not nid to stay until 7/6/08...haha...but quite fun at there oso, coz can noe sumthing new at there and can noe more type of frens...learn how to communicate wit other edi...hehe...sum attitide is gd but sum very bad, until hurt me oso got...feel so sad...but i noe how to communicate wit them although is bad...gd rite?...is like tat one if alone go away from hometown...nid to learn many things tat we dunno b4...it is gd for us...hehe...

b4 tat when i noe i kena ns, i feel afraid to go and keep thinking bad thing, and cry oso...so stupid...lol...then after my dear keep explain to me, it is gd for me to go and learn new thing and noe more frens oso...i still will keep thinking tat i duwan to go, feel sad summore...haha...after he keep explain to me about 3 or 4 times edi i only understand edi, and accept i nid go and learn...and feel happy wan to go edi, although will feel miss when go there but i noe i can take care myself when i at there....wont let anyone worry about me...hehe....i still remember sumtime when dear explain to me tat time feel got abit angry edi, coz i always like tat, no tat stronger to face it....until like wan to scold me edi, but how he oso for my own good....love me only do tat to me...i understand it...^^

when i at there tat first week i feel very lonely coz no one is beside me edi, nid to be more stronger to face it, wat oso nid to done myself, i still remember the second day i call my mum and dear...told them tat how was there...when i heard their voice my tears is coming out edi, and wan to cry edi, really cannot tahan coz too miss them edi...but at last i din cry, just talk wit them and try to dun let them i am crying...coz i duwan they worry about me, i am fine there...when i told dear tat i will very suffer at there, then he told me is like tat one, must learn from now, dun wat oso say hard, u can do it...thank for him support me although he was worry about me and miss me too...i love u dear...muacksss

finally i wan to come here edi...but now tat feeling just like b4 when i came tat time miss my family, but now is miss my frens there...i miss them alot...when i go bak tat time all my frens giv me a hug and wish, feel so touch and cry edi...one of my fren call QIAN she is the fren tat quite close wit me, and like my jie jie like tat, always take care of me and frens...when i go bak tat time she giv me a big big hug tat i din get from any frens b4...i really miss u so much QIAN...hope can meet u one day again...i noe u stay so far from my place...but i noe got day god sure will let us meet each other again...hehe...trust god ya...i really miss u so much...

ALL MY NS FRENS KEEP IN TOUCH YA....FRIENDSHIP FOREVER^^